Brace yourself kids, ish is about to get real!
As I’m sure most of you have noticed, I chopped all of my hair off. Usually, this isn’t such a big deal, as I’m always cutting my hair after I get bored with it, but this time was a bit different. As usual, I got the same remarks:
“Omg, why’d you cut all of your hair off?”
“Omg I can’t believe you cut it! Whyyy? I loved your hair.”
or my favorite,
“But it was so pretty and so long!”
Thanks guys. I’m sure it’s so short and so ugly now–appreciate all of your love and support.
Usually, I don’t care what people think about me or my hair because frankly, it’s nobody else’s business. If I wanted to go bald it shouldn’t mean a dang thing to anybody else or their mama! But this time, the haircut meant something to me. It was actually hard for me to cut it because I knew that if I did, when I did, I would have to make it mean something. If not, what would have been the point? Here’s what I sent to my mom and sisters in a group text, you know, just to avoid any unwanted commentary whilst in my already vulnerable state:
“…I’m on a journey and I had to do something for myself. Over the past 5 years I’ve gained 70lbs. I fluctuate between 214 and 220 right now. I didn’t feel pretty anymore. My face is round, I know. I don’t need any reminders. I was eating out way to much, spending tons of money and shopping unnecessarily. I’ve been being lazy and not going after my dreams. So I cut my hair. I cut my hair because it’s a part of my journey to change. Mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically…So, not that it matters or I owe anybody an explanation, but there ya go.”
In late October of 2014, I began my journey–one that required I start anew. These past couple of years have been interesting for me. I gained tons of weight, dropped out of graduate school twice, voluntarily moved back in with my parents and am currently using my hard-earned degree to simply work in retail–something had to change. Don’t get me wrong, retail is cool, but that is not what I had planned for my life; and although I got a kick out of it most days, it will soon grow into a place of misery. I went from living life in NYC, to settling back down in rural, South Louisiana. As I’m sure you can imagine, internally I was losing my shxt! So, I made a decision: I am going to do what I love to do and not settle for anything less than that! I am not only going to learn to love myself for who and what I am, but grow into an even better version of that and continue to love her just as much! & as my hair grows back and changes over the years, I intend to grow and change with it.
So, to any and everyone who asked or was wondering, that’s why I cut my hair–not that it’s any of your concern, my dear.
Remember, grow to love and appreciate yourself because “you see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” -Mother Teresa
Are any of you going through a transitional phase in your lives? Have any of you struggled with or been successful in weight loss? If so, please feel free to comment below and share your stories, tips and words of encouragement!
I love this man, I swear I do. And to all of you bandwagon fans: it’s okay, I welcome you aboard–I mean, I do understand after all.
Nick Jonas, God’s wonderful blessing to us all, has returned to the music scene, once again, with a full-on solo career. As most of you know, he was previously in the band Jonas Brothers, with his brothers Kevin and Joe, and briefly entertained a side project, also known as Nick Jonas & the Administration. The three also starred in a few Disney films, like Camp Rock, and had their own television show, Jonas L.A–which occasionally featured their little brother, Frankie. Now little Nicky isn’t so little anymore, and I must say, both Hollywood and social media are losing their shxt!
Things seemed to pick up a bit when Nick released his song Jealous, which, surprisingly, has an awesome R&B vibe. I remember first hearing the song on the radio and not recognizing that it was him–and then obviously freaking out when I realized it was! Personally, I find the music video a bit silly and ridiculous, but it takes nothing away from the song–and it doesn’t hurt that the man behind the voice is basically an angel.
People later went crazy because…well, you saw the pics! Like I said, Nick grew up and he let the world know it! After first posting some personal pictures showing a bit of bare chest, and later posing shirtless for a few other magazines, my boy took home the prize by doing a shoot for Flaunt Magazine that was nearly identical to the 1992 Calvin Klein shoot of the beautiful Mark Wahlberg–check out his accent in the video below! #throwbackthursday for sure!
I won’t post any more of the pictures because you can search for those yourselves–and my mother happens to read this blog! But you get the drift; times, they are a changin’.
Nick just released a new album entitled, Nick Jonas; he’s one of the stars in the drama television series, Kingdom, which airs on Audience TV; he just told the world on the Wendy Williams’s talk show that he’s no longer a virgin–this really only matters to you if you cared about them back then and were aware that he and his brothers wore purity rings; and he’s even dating Miss Universe. Miss freaking Universe people! Recently, he released a super awesome gospel version of his song Jealous, which is all of the buzz and surpassed 3 million views today. Check it out below!
I remember when people would laugh at me for liking the Jonas Brothers and even more so for loving Nick. Granted, he is a bit younger than me, and I did continue to like them well into my adulthood–you know, when they were a bit played out. But what did that matter? Don’t believe me? Check this:
When I was 18, my then boyfriend got me several lovely gifts for Valentines Day: A singing stuffed animal–classic; the new India Arie album at the time–because I love her of course; and dinner and a movie– you know, the norm. Oh wait! I forgot to mention that he also gifted me with two very large posters of both The Jonas Brothers posing for Rolling Stone and one of Nick posing alone. Yes people, it was something serious! I still have them and I will never regret bringing them to college and hanging them up in my dorm room.
(Yes, that really is me & I was super hot, I know…let’s move on! Here is my dorm room freshman year, 2009. Tinkerbell was for my roommate.)
But as they say, “haters gonna hate & ainters gonna aint,” people! (Shoutout to the new Seth Rogan and James Franco movie, The Interview! It’ll be released on Christmas Day.) No matter what, I will always be a Nick Jonas fan. I’ve been down since day one and that is never gonna change. And since I know he’ll never see this, we can totes still get married and have the cutest babies! Ha! If you want to see the actual posters, they’ll be on my instagram. Be sure to check out Nick’s new album on iTunes, follow him on twitter, instagram, and subscribe to his Vevo YouTube Channel. Until then folks, try not to get too jealous, eh?
Hey guys! As you know, I like to do musical posts every so often. Nothing too deep really, just sharing some of the music that I have been enjoying and replaying literally nonstop.
I first heard Wildfire on our work playlist a few months ago, but forgot about it. Later, I heard the song again in one of Joe Sugg’s vlogs of Bestival–which took place in the heart of the Isle of Wight (UK)–and I was going mad because I couldn’t understand the lyrics on his video and there was no one linking to or mentioning the song. But, a few days ago it started playing again at work, and I demanded that my manager tell me what the song was. The beat is so catchy and the lyrics are clear enough for you to figure out most of what she’s saying, but vague enough to make you second guess yourself. It’s also quite smooth and mesmerizing and, obviously, full of electronic and dubstep elements. Check it out!
The second favorite is Waves by Mr. Probz, the Robin Schulz Remix. The original song is quite slow but was transformed into an upbeat, electronic hit by Robin Schulz. I heard this song on the radio and loved it immediately, but I could never remember it by the time I got home. Yesterday, I heard it again and quickly whipped out my phone to type in some key lyrics. More than anything, this guy’s voice is quite memorable. Sure, there’s some auto-tune or something thrown in there, but that raspiness is surely his own. Again, the beat is catchy and easily a club hit, but also mellow enough to relax to.
As always, be sure to check out all the links and if you listen to any of the songs, do let me know if you enjoyed them–or hated them, whichever!
In honor of Veterans Day, I’d just like to say thank you to all of those that serve on behalf of our country. Sure, everyone may not agree with our reasons to go to war, but they surely wouldn’t object to the daily protection that they receive. Regardless of international affairs and political parties, thank you! I appreciate all that you do for me and my family, for you and your family, and for the families that you may never meet. I pray that you all are safe and protected in the arms of God.
I’d also like to show some appreciation to my dad.
He joined the army at the age of 18, I believe, all because he needed and wanted to provide for his family. It’s funny, because my younger sister and I always tell people that my dad may have very well become one of the greatest basketball players in the world–seriously guys, playing with Jordan himself. But, he and my mom had my oldest sister quite young, so my dad joined the army instead. & no worries, he’s not one of those guys that talks about how he would have been famous all the time, lol. In fact, if it weren’t for the documentation of his high school basketball career and my mom reaffirming that he was indeed quite good, my sisters and I wouldn’t know anything about it.
He joined in 1979 and my older sister was born in 1980; he was officially honorably discharged in 1991 as an E6 Sergeant. He likes to say that: “I went in for your sister and I came out for you.”
(Dad’s second to last on the first row & the close up is below.)
(Can you spot him? He’s the fifth guy from the left on the first row.)
So, thanks dad! I love that you were honorable enough to join the army for mom and Shay, but thanks for coming home for me!
For those of you who are feeling a little down and somewhat doubtful today, this post is for you–just a little reminder!
“Promise me you’ll always remember: You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” -Christopher Robin, Winnie The Pooh, A. A. Milne
God will never put more on you than you can bear, so no worries. You can do it! There is no one around that can do what you do, quite the way that you do it.
Even when you may not believe in yourself, remember: I believe in you! I am rooting for all of you!
WARNING: This video will bring happiness, joy, smiles, and all around good feelings. You have been warned